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Oct. 9th, 2017 03:15 pmI've been holding off on physical transition partly because I'm just so deeply terrified of coming out to my dad, and also partly because we're supposed to be moving and it doesn't seen like a great time to start something.
But on the other hand, my dad can't even decide where he wants to live, so who knows if the move will even ever get around to happening. I'm also thinking I might just choose to stay here anyway.
There are probably always going to be reasons I can come up with not to do it, but the truth is that I'm miserable not having hormones. Not having top surgery. Not having the body I want. I can't just keep putting it off. I can't keep sulking about it. I need to do something!
So I went ahead an arranged for my doctor to give me a referral to a trans clinic. Hopefully things go okay from there.
But on the other hand, my dad can't even decide where he wants to live, so who knows if the move will even ever get around to happening. I'm also thinking I might just choose to stay here anyway.
There are probably always going to be reasons I can come up with not to do it, but the truth is that I'm miserable not having hormones. Not having top surgery. Not having the body I want. I can't just keep putting it off. I can't keep sulking about it. I need to do something!
So I went ahead an arranged for my doctor to give me a referral to a trans clinic. Hopefully things go okay from there.
