where my heart is

I'd been having a lot of doubts about whether I should really go to University for classics, given that it's not really a super great option for finding a career, and would my passion for the subject really stay strong, and can I really do it, am I really capable? What if I fail? So then I considered giving it up, and then I fell into a deep depression. Good going self.

Then I thought about how miserable I was at the thought of not doing it, and decided I should do it. I should at least try. Once I decided that, it was like the spark that had been missing in my life lately was reignited. I feel very certain now that I am passionate about this subject, and that I do want to spend my life studying it. It's natural to have some doubts, but I shouldn't let that stop me before I've even really started.

I'm applying to some programs soon, I'm waiting until my next check so that I have money for applications fees. There's still time before the deadlines for next fall, and I have all the minimum requirements met from classes I took before. I just hope I get in somewhere! Please take me, I'll be a dedicated student!!!

So meanwhile I'm doing a bit of studying on my own. I have some latin textbooks, and I'm listening to podcasts and reading works in translation. It can be hard with my ADHD, but I feel like I'm making some progress.

Fandom-wise, I'm counting down the days to the Last Jedi and the DW special, while also re-watching Star Trek: Voyager. I'm mid season 3 right now.