where my heart is

I'm keeping up with my Star Trek re-watch, but I'm also itching to watch some Doctor Who. It's been a while! I definitely need to catch up on the current season. I didn't mean to fall behind, but I'm bad at keeping up with currently airing shows.

It probably has to do with my ADHD. I get hyperfixated on things and suddenly realize several hours have passed and that I've missed everything else I wanted to do that day. Making it to medical appointments can be a real adventure.

It might help if my days had more structure. I've been out of work for a long time now, and I'm kind of itching to get back to it, or maybe to get back into school. Having time off was nice, but at a certain point I just got stuck in this pattern of sitting here all day. It frustrates me and makes my depression worse, but because of said depression, breaking out of the cycle can be hard.

I also want to move out into my own place, though, so getting a job is essential!

ANYWAY, the original point of this post is that I want to watch some Who tomorrow!

It's been a while! I'm going to try to be more active around here again. I was trying to make the tumblr thing work, but I once again remembered why tumblr fandom just depresses me ... I don't know why I just can't manage to leave and be done with it!

Anyway, what's been up with you all? Feel free to tell me anything important I've missed!

As far as my life goes ... Well, uh. My dad is still considering moving, and I'm still wondering if I should move with him. I don't know if I want to go back to university or not. I don't know if I want to transition or not. Recently I learned that they suspect my dad might have colon cancer, and I'm trying to convince him that he really does need to have a colonoscopy. He's so stubborn.

Things are just really up in the air right now, and it's stressing me out a lot. So I've been coping by rewatching Inuyasha and Sailor Moon and playing a lot of Mass Effect ...

I'm looking forward to the new Doctor Who season and am hoping for good things from the upcoming Star Trek projects. I'm most excited about Picard returning, but I'm also hoping I'll like Discovery season 2 more than I liked season 1. I mean, I liked Burnham, Tilly, Culber, and Stamets a lot, so I'll definitely tune back in to see how things are with them. (Holding out hope for Culber coming back to life!)

Oh and tomorrow there's the Nintendo Direct + new issues of Supergirl & Quicksilver! That will be a welcome distraction for sure.

I was eager to get to this era of Who, so I went ahead and skipped to Adric's first appearance in the Full Circle serial.

Adric is great so far! He clearly has moments of annoying other characters, but in some ways, he strikes me as a better and more cranky Wesley Crusher, in that he's youngish but talented, but the writers aren't testing your patience like they do with Wesley. I actually love Wesley Crusher, but there are points that I get annoyed with him, because the writers are telling you he's so special all the time without always backing it up ... (And, as a Native person, I hate that they brought in Native stuff just to bolster Wesley's status as a special white kid.)  But Adric in Full Circle is presented more matter-of-factly, I think. I like him! And I like that he cared about Romana's well-being.

A lot of people seem to dislike him though, so I imagine he gets worse than he is here in this first serial?

The plot was fairly enjoyable, although I hated that spiders had to be involved. I know the spiders here look pretty cheesy, but it was still enough to make my skin crawl! I. hate. spiders.

As always, I have a huge crush on any version of Romana. Lalla Ward is so beautiful!

I listened to Eighth Doctor audio Minuet in Hell and it was ... a mess. Like there may have been one or two good ideas in there, but it was muddled in a lot of sexism (why would I want to hear Charley be faced with the threat of sexual assault multiple times?) and just generally poor execution.

I did kind of like the idea of the Doctor being unsure of who he is and almost believing that someone else was the Doctor. Like there's something there if it wasn't surrounded by the rest of it.

Anyway, I was warned it was a bad one, so I was kind of expecting it. Hopefully the next one will be better!

Today I got a much needed haircut + bought a shirt with all of the Doctors as cats.


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 Somehow, despite being a Doctor/River fan, I hadn't gone back to watch Silence in the Library/Forest of the Dead since they aired, so I did that last night, and cried my eyes out. I'm still feeling pretty emotionally compromised.

 Speaking of Doctor Who, watching the First Doctor stuff makes me exciting for the upcoming special!