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I put the Doctor Crusher pin I got from my friend and my Legion of Super-Heroes flight pin on the Mario hoodie that I wear all the time.
Maximum nerd.
Updates.
Sorry I haven't been posting much fandom stuff. Obviously a lot has been going on in my life since my dad passed.
I wasn't able to get an apartment lined up in time for moving out of the one I shared with dad, so I'm staying with a friend in her family member's RV. This way my cat can stay with me without getting overwhelmed by the dogs. He wasn't socialized with dogs so they'd really freak him out.
I'm seeing some apartments on Wednesday, and am hoping to move into one as soon as possible!
Since there's no will, I had to wait 40 days to gain access to dad's finances. I'm headed to bank later today to close out his account and hopefully get that money into my account. Any money I had is tapped out right now, and I can't keep asking my friends to help me, because money doesn't grow on trees! So I'm really hoping to get that money today.
The person who is lending me this RV is also buying dad's truck from me, so that will bring in some money too. I'm keeping the car, and planning to learn to drive in it.
The tribe also has some money waiting for me, I just need to submit an application to get access to it.
I've got a few job applications in, and will be doing more and more! Need to get some work as soon as possible.
Dad's service is on the 13th, and his urn is being buried at the tribal cemetery just after that.
Emotionally I'm ... stressed but okay. Yesterday while we were moving things I just had to sit down and cry. Getting the move done in two days was very physically taxing, and it was also a lot to have to get rid of a lot of dad's stuff, and to see the apartment we shared empty ... I'm feeling alright so far today though.
I wasn't able to get an apartment lined up in time for moving out of the one I shared with dad, so I'm staying with a friend in her family member's RV. This way my cat can stay with me without getting overwhelmed by the dogs. He wasn't socialized with dogs so they'd really freak him out.
I'm seeing some apartments on Wednesday, and am hoping to move into one as soon as possible!
Since there's no will, I had to wait 40 days to gain access to dad's finances. I'm headed to bank later today to close out his account and hopefully get that money into my account. Any money I had is tapped out right now, and I can't keep asking my friends to help me, because money doesn't grow on trees! So I'm really hoping to get that money today.
The person who is lending me this RV is also buying dad's truck from me, so that will bring in some money too. I'm keeping the car, and planning to learn to drive in it.
The tribe also has some money waiting for me, I just need to submit an application to get access to it.
I've got a few job applications in, and will be doing more and more! Need to get some work as soon as possible.
Dad's service is on the 13th, and his urn is being buried at the tribal cemetery just after that.
Emotionally I'm ... stressed but okay. Yesterday while we were moving things I just had to sit down and cry. Getting the move done in two days was very physically taxing, and it was also a lot to have to get rid of a lot of dad's stuff, and to see the apartment we shared empty ... I'm feeling alright so far today though.
ok, uh, bit of an adventure tonight
I tripped on a cord and fell. I’m alright, but I strained my arm trying to grab something to stop the fall. The pain was pretty intense for a while so I went to the ER to make sure it wasn’t broken or anything like that. They confirmed it’s just a strain and will heal on its own.
I also broke my glasses (I have a spare pair I’m wearing now) and am going to have some impressive bruises on my left knee. It could have been much worse, though, so I feel fortunate!
I was going to go to bed right away, but The City on the Edge of Forever is on, and I can’t resist that episode.
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Someday I'd like to adopt two black cats and name them after Lily Munster and Morticia Addams, because
1. Black cats have lower adoption rates, which is terrible.
2. What's the fun of being goth if you can't act like a parody of yourself?
It would be great if one of them was a long-haired black cat too, but I'm not picky! There are so many cats so need homes!
My current cat, Miller, is very rowdy and doesn't like any other pets, though, so this will be sometime in the future. (And make no mistake, I love that cat with my whole heart! His comfort and happiness is my first priority, and I would never give him up as long as I'm able to care for him.)
1. Black cats have lower adoption rates, which is terrible.
2. What's the fun of being goth if you can't act like a parody of yourself?
It would be great if one of them was a long-haired black cat too, but I'm not picky! There are so many cats so need homes!
My current cat, Miller, is very rowdy and doesn't like any other pets, though, so this will be sometime in the future. (And make no mistake, I love that cat with my whole heart! His comfort and happiness is my first priority, and I would never give him up as long as I'm able to care for him.)
Updates re: dad's health.
So, while the colon cancer thing came back negative, they wanted to do a CT scan since he was still having health problems. Then they wanted to do a biopsy, and now we know for sure that it is cancer. Just a different kind. Lymphoma.
They want him to start chemotherapy right away.
I'm trying to remain optimistic about his chances of surviving, but obviously chemotherapy is really hard too. Even of he does survive, this is going to be a difficult time.
They want him to start chemotherapy right away.
I'm trying to remain optimistic about his chances of surviving, but obviously chemotherapy is really hard too. Even of he does survive, this is going to be a difficult time.
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There's an ongoing war between the maintenance staff for our apartment complex and the local gophers. Judging by the sheer number of mounds on our lawns today, the gophers seem to be winning.
Given that marmots are my namesake, I can't help but root for my fellow rodents.
Given that marmots are my namesake, I can't help but root for my fellow rodents.
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I'm keeping up with my Star Trek re-watch, but I'm also itching to watch some Doctor Who. It's been a while! I definitely need to catch up on the current season. I didn't mean to fall behind, but I'm bad at keeping up with currently airing shows.
It probably has to do with my ADHD. I get hyperfixated on things and suddenly realize several hours have passed and that I've missed everything else I wanted to do that day. Making it to medical appointments can be a real adventure.
It might help if my days had more structure. I've been out of work for a long time now, and I'm kind of itching to get back to it, or maybe to get back into school. Having time off was nice, but at a certain point I just got stuck in this pattern of sitting here all day. It frustrates me and makes my depression worse, but because of said depression, breaking out of the cycle can be hard.
I also want to move out into my own place, though, so getting a job is essential!
ANYWAY, the original point of this post is that I want to watch some Who tomorrow!
It probably has to do with my ADHD. I get hyperfixated on things and suddenly realize several hours have passed and that I've missed everything else I wanted to do that day. Making it to medical appointments can be a real adventure.
It might help if my days had more structure. I've been out of work for a long time now, and I'm kind of itching to get back to it, or maybe to get back into school. Having time off was nice, but at a certain point I just got stuck in this pattern of sitting here all day. It frustrates me and makes my depression worse, but because of said depression, breaking out of the cycle can be hard.
I also want to move out into my own place, though, so getting a job is essential!
ANYWAY, the original point of this post is that I want to watch some Who tomorrow!
Good news!
Dad did a take home screening for colon cancer a while ago and got a positive, but since take home tests can have false positives we had to wait in suspense for a while for more solid results. It turns out he's cancer free!
This is obviously fantastic news, but he is still experiencing some pain and digestive issues, so we still have to figure out what's wrong. At least it isn't cancer though.
This is obviously fantastic news, but he is still experiencing some pain and digestive issues, so we still have to figure out what's wrong. At least it isn't cancer though.
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People find my dad intimidating because he’s got tattoos and scowls a lot, but he’s honestly such a sweet and generous man!
He bought me THREE Final Fantasy games for christmas (XIV, XV, and the steam version of VI) and then he also just bought me a sweater and a shawl/poncho thing because he knows I love new clothes? DAD … Father …. Thank you ………….
He also basically melts the moment you put a kitten or puppy or baby in front of him. He is secretly tender.
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I'm planning to be more active here, since Tumblr is banning adult content. (I don't post a lot of NSFW stuff myself, but obviously this is a move that's going to negative affect sex workers and the LGBT+ community, and I don't care to keep using a platform that would make that kind of decision.)
I just wanted to say that I'm currently going by the name Teddy and using he/him pronouns. Planning to move forward with my transition soon! It's scary, but overdue.
I'm also back into superhero comics, so I'll be posting about that a lot. Particularly about the Batfamily and the Young Avengers.
I just wanted to say that I'm currently going by the name Teddy and using he/him pronouns. Planning to move forward with my transition soon! It's scary, but overdue.
I'm also back into superhero comics, so I'll be posting about that a lot. Particularly about the Batfamily and the Young Avengers.
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I've been sick for about a week now! It's really wearing me down, but thankfully I have a doctor's appointment on Monday. If I'm still sick by then we can make sure it's nothing serious. And if it is an infection or something, I can get some medication to help.
The cat woke me up at around 5am because he had to be fed right that instant. He's such a brat, but I love him. Bless.
I'm getting a large-ish check in September, which will be a big help. We've been a little strapped for cash, and I need some new essentials, like underwear and socks. There's also a Supergirl statue I want, so hopefully I'll have enough to do both!
The cat woke me up at around 5am because he had to be fed right that instant. He's such a brat, but I love him. Bless.
I'm getting a large-ish check in September, which will be a big help. We've been a little strapped for cash, and I need some new essentials, like underwear and socks. There's also a Supergirl statue I want, so hopefully I'll have enough to do both!
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Feeling sad today, as I had to tell a friend that our relationship has gotten so stressful and full of fights and bad feelings that I need to take some time away from her. I feel it's the healthiest decision for us both, but that doesn't mean it hurts any less.
Might listen to some Eighth Doctor audios to cheer myself up.
Might listen to some Eighth Doctor audios to cheer myself up.
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It's been a while! I'm going to try to be more active around here again. I was trying to make the tumblr thing work, but I once again remembered why tumblr fandom just depresses me ... I don't know why I just can't manage to leave and be done with it!
Anyway, what's been up with you all? Feel free to tell me anything important I've missed!
As far as my life goes ... Well, uh. My dad is still considering moving, and I'm still wondering if I should move with him. I don't know if I want to go back to university or not. I don't know if I want to transition or not. Recently I learned that they suspect my dad might have colon cancer, and I'm trying to convince him that he really does need to have a colonoscopy. He's so stubborn.
Things are just really up in the air right now, and it's stressing me out a lot. So I've been coping by rewatching Inuyasha and Sailor Moon and playing a lot of Mass Effect ...
I'm looking forward to the new Doctor Who season and am hoping for good things from the upcoming Star Trek projects. I'm most excited about Picard returning, but I'm also hoping I'll like Discovery season 2 more than I liked season 1. I mean, I liked Burnham, Tilly, Culber, and Stamets a lot, so I'll definitely tune back in to see how things are with them. (Holding out hope for Culber coming back to life!)
Oh and tomorrow there's the Nintendo Direct + new issues of Supergirl & Quicksilver! That will be a welcome distraction for sure.
Anyway, what's been up with you all? Feel free to tell me anything important I've missed!
As far as my life goes ... Well, uh. My dad is still considering moving, and I'm still wondering if I should move with him. I don't know if I want to go back to university or not. I don't know if I want to transition or not. Recently I learned that they suspect my dad might have colon cancer, and I'm trying to convince him that he really does need to have a colonoscopy. He's so stubborn.
Things are just really up in the air right now, and it's stressing me out a lot. So I've been coping by rewatching Inuyasha and Sailor Moon and playing a lot of Mass Effect ...
I'm looking forward to the new Doctor Who season and am hoping for good things from the upcoming Star Trek projects. I'm most excited about Picard returning, but I'm also hoping I'll like Discovery season 2 more than I liked season 1. I mean, I liked Burnham, Tilly, Culber, and Stamets a lot, so I'll definitely tune back in to see how things are with them. (Holding out hope for Culber coming back to life!)
Oh and tomorrow there's the Nintendo Direct + new issues of Supergirl & Quicksilver! That will be a welcome distraction for sure.
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Long time no see!
I'm sorry I haven't been around much, I've been feeling so burnt out and depressed that it was hard to feel motivated to post anything. I've been feeling a bit better the past few days though.
I was feeling especially burnt out on Star Trek fandom so I took an extended break from that, but now I'm back and rewatching TOS! Star Trek is one of the most significant fandoms in my life, so it feels great to be enthusiast about it again. I can't wait for Discovery to air! I found the news coming from Star Trek Las Vegas really interesting. It was great to hear the enthusiasm that the cast and crew has for the franchise.
Dad is planning on moving ... somewhere, he can't seem to decide where. I haven't decided if I'm going with him or not. I mean it's hard to make the decision when he can't even pin don't what city he'll be living in.
I was feeling especially burnt out on Star Trek fandom so I took an extended break from that, but now I'm back and rewatching TOS! Star Trek is one of the most significant fandoms in my life, so it feels great to be enthusiast about it again. I can't wait for Discovery to air! I found the news coming from Star Trek Las Vegas really interesting. It was great to hear the enthusiasm that the cast and crew has for the franchise.
Dad is planning on moving ... somewhere, he can't seem to decide where. I haven't decided if I'm going with him or not. I mean it's hard to make the decision when he can't even pin don't what city he'll be living in.
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The cat woke me up at 5AM for food. If he had waited an hour I would have been up anyway. But it's hard to stay mad at him when he has that cute face.
Anyway, I either want to go like full on alien with my makeup and try some iridescent lipsticks and lavender or silver highlighters or go for a more natural look with less eyeliner and maybe a tinted sunscreen instead of full coverage foundation.
I guess I could try both and see what I like more. And I could always do a different look depending on the day. I just want to experiment, I guess.
And one of these days I'm absolutely going to wear a crop top! I just need to work up the confidence.
Also, I reorganized my manga bookshelf last night. It's all in alphabetical order now, except CLAMP, who get their own section, because they have so many works.
I can't wait for the new Sailor Moon editions to come out! They're going to have shimmery covers and, importantly, a revised translation!
Now if only Udon would give us news about the Rose of Versailles ....
Anyway, I either want to go like full on alien with my makeup and try some iridescent lipsticks and lavender or silver highlighters or go for a more natural look with less eyeliner and maybe a tinted sunscreen instead of full coverage foundation.
I guess I could try both and see what I like more. And I could always do a different look depending on the day. I just want to experiment, I guess.
And one of these days I'm absolutely going to wear a crop top! I just need to work up the confidence.
Also, I reorganized my manga bookshelf last night. It's all in alphabetical order now, except CLAMP, who get their own section, because they have so many works.
I can't wait for the new Sailor Moon editions to come out! They're going to have shimmery covers and, importantly, a revised translation!
Now if only Udon would give us news about the Rose of Versailles ....
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Today I got a much needed haircut + bought a shirt with all of the Doctors as cats.
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hi everyone!
I just wanted to say hi and thank you to everyone who's added me! I think I already have more followers here than I had in like five years of Livejournal back in the day, ha.
Today was a pretty lousy day because of my depression, so I unfortunately didn't get much done. It was that feeling where you're bored but you're also too depressed to do anything, or for anything to seem interesting, so you just stay bored all day instead. I hope tomorrow is better, especially because I was planning to fill out some job applications, so having energy and motivation would be helpful.
I also took two naps today, which kind of helped but kind of just made me feel groggy.
Fandom-wise I've been trying to write this fluffy Data/Geordi fic about Data wooing him with flowers etc, but I keep being over-critical while I'm writing. I need to try and turn off my internal editor and just write. I can fix it later, but I need to get stuff down on the page first! :\
I have this short attention span, so I'm consuming Doctor Who in three different ways right now (re-watching first Doctor stuff, watching all the Doctor/River episodes, and listening to the Eighth Doctor audios). I'd probably get farther if I focused on just one, but it's hard for me to stick with one thing at a time.
Today was a pretty lousy day because of my depression, so I unfortunately didn't get much done. It was that feeling where you're bored but you're also too depressed to do anything, or for anything to seem interesting, so you just stay bored all day instead. I hope tomorrow is better, especially because I was planning to fill out some job applications, so having energy and motivation would be helpful.
I also took two naps today, which kind of helped but kind of just made me feel groggy.
Fandom-wise I've been trying to write this fluffy Data/Geordi fic about Data wooing him with flowers etc, but I keep being over-critical while I'm writing. I need to try and turn off my internal editor and just write. I can fix it later, but I need to get stuff down on the page first! :\
I have this short attention span, so I'm consuming Doctor Who in three different ways right now (re-watching first Doctor stuff, watching all the Doctor/River episodes, and listening to the Eighth Doctor audios). I'd probably get farther if I focused on just one, but it's hard for me to stick with one thing at a time.
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My brain is absolutely convinced I need to wake up at 5AM every morning. It's really taking a toll on me. I feel sluggish all day and that makes it hard to do things like cooking for myself. If I could just sleep another hour or so, that would help so much.
I've tried going to be a little later, but it still happens. Maybe I need to go to bed significantly later?
I've tried going to be a little later, but it still happens. Maybe I need to go to bed significantly later?